APEK INC.

As I sat there, thinking of the whole day's experience, the smile still won't pass off my mind. I thought I would manage without you for a while not until it turned out that the only, while I would survive without you, were the moments with you.

I know it may sound flattery but I have tried as much not to tell you the truth for a long time. Time has gone each day coming with my heart saying not today and I have always resolved to trust that deceitful thing anyway cos it is the only thing under my custody that I could trust.

What of the moments I have seen myself losing you? Is it jealousy or it is just normal to feel so? The answer to these and many other questions that I have daily asked myself are off my reach. I wish I could be in a position to fully accept that I can lose you to anybody who may best suit you.

I don't know whether if today I hear that you are getting proposed to, leave alone married, if I could attend. Whether even I could stand the news is a question I daily have tried to ask myself and each day no answer is outcoming. I wish my heart was strong enough to keep up to the smile and the cheer up you normally have but sometimes there are hearts that once they have been broken will not at any cost be mended because some memories are hardly forgotten.

I have distanced myself from telling you all this truth because I fear letting you go through the harsh me. The wrongs I have done are worth me staying alone for some good time before I hurt anyone else. but I have realized instead of being better I am worsening.